Innocence.

An interesting concept. . . was watching a movie and a woman randomly starts stripping - she says she is so happy and when she was a child she would go off by herself, strip down to nothing, and dance around to show her love and express her joy - she dances around without a care and I want to suddenly join her. At first I don't think I could be naked without being self-concious, and then I realize, she probably loves her body - maybe by being comfortable in my own skin, I can start to love it as well. So. I've added to my bucket list: learn to love life and my body and to celebrate in solitude by dancing around naked. XD

Innocent Joy.

Makes me want to climb back into bed and force over myself a world of happiness. A world where I am a mother. A world where I am in control and I can be weak and in distress. A world where I don't have to wear a concrete mask molded into a cheery smile. A world where I can be innocent and joyful.

I think I could be a single parent. If I could pull myself together, I would be willing to start a family by myself. I can see myself as a virgin mother with an adopted child and/or foster children. I can see it and I love the way it looks. I wish there was a husband in there, but in all honesty, at this point in my life - I can't realisticly see myself in love. Sad. Pathetic. Honest.